I Miss My Sexy Beast!

Over at the writer's forum, my friend Claire is running a "sex scene" exercise for the month of September. Being as I'm not exactly proficient when it comes to such intimate scenes (truth is, they're embarrassing as all get out! Imagine your mother reading your scene! No matter what you say, she's always going to think YOU have partaken in every act you describe. LOL. Whether or not that's true, I don't want MY mother reading that stuff!), I decided to participate.

Anyway, FI was out, and BTPM was a no-go because the characters involved have to be of consenting age. *sigh* So, I gave in and pulled out COTM. The dust was inch thick, I tell ya. The scene I chose?? YOWSA. Talk about bad. LOL. And I remember thinking how well-written it was at the time. Good grief--thank God I've come a long way--I hope.

The problem is, the short time I spent fussing with this scene has made me miss Aidan (aka sexy beast) and Morgan a great deal. *sigh* This was my first attempt at a novel, and of course it's always going to have a special place in my heart. That said... would it be wise to finish it when it will forever be seen as an attempt to mimic Gabaldon? I just don't know. Deep down I believe it has something different to offer, lots of original conflict and obstacles to a HEA, IF they ever reach that point.

Gah. I just don't know. Plus, it will take a lot of research before I can continue. Who has time for that? LOL. Certainly not me at this point -- and certainly not with two other books that are in mid-revision. Blah. Too many books in this head!